Re: My father just died
A lot of us have been through this. That doesn't make it any easier for you. It is a shock, sometimes there is a feeling that you should have done something different. But you can't and it would have at best led only to a different ending.
You are right, it is lonely, the little things you shared are all memories, and the next story you want to tell can't be.
We all feel for you.
With (big) brotherly affection,
just because you're paranoid doesn't mean they are not watching you